In The Shack: Where Tragedy Confronts Eternity Paperback (*affiliate link), Author William P. Young describes the depression that follows tragedy "The Great Sadness".
Where did my Great Sadness start?
- I guess my dad leaving the ministry to announce to the world he was an atheist was tough.
- Dad leaving the house to be a crack addict was tough.
- Brother dying was a relief, him leaving his daughter behind without a dad was tough.
I felt his death when he stopped showing up (years before he eventually actually died physically). That was a loss... and a great sadness... and it felt like a betrayal.
But I am... I just... am.
You are weaving tapestry I cannot see from my perspective. Maybe I never will until I get to the other side of eternity.
Ce la vie.